Depressed

So I got the worst grade in the entire class for my math exam. I feel numb. This is beyond anger, frustration, sadness...just an utter feeling of hopelessness. I think I know what it feels like to drown now. You can't breathe you just feel something filling in your lungs and you look out, knowing you can do nothing to save yourself. You have kicked until you can kick no more and then you sink into oblivion--death. I don't know why this is happening. Did I do something wrong? Why is God letting this happen? Why not? I thought I did better on this exam than the last one but apparently not. The average was a 41/65 and I got an 18/65. Yeah, beyond the range of impressive. I've emailed my TA and I have the final left. 40% is still up for grabs. But who am I kidding myself? Clearly I don't get anything about math. I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. Only that I can't wait to go to heaven, where there are no grades to weigh us down--to tell us that we are worthless.

Sorry to be such a downer. But I just thought I'd let you know.